Fucken Crazies

Yep, angst again. Fucken crazies...Some people say that I'm awesome or good-looking, but in fact I disagree. I really don't trust those comments.

I just broke up with my boyfriend last Sunday. It's been a week...And I'm in a weird place now. I'm in a weird place, because I don't love him...I wish I did. So breaking up with him brought me great relief and great sadness...I wish I had the feelings I needed for him; the feelings he has for me that I can't return.

It's not fair to him, really. I feel very guilty. I should explain why I feel sadness; I feel something meaningful for him, but it isn't love, I hope. I only hope, because loving him only after we broke up would be so fitting...Wouldn't it.

Oy. And then there are other people who want me in their lives, and frankly, while I'm not ready the attention is flattering...But it's weird...I'm sorta creeped out by some. The end.