More Ridiculous Relationship Blogs, AND a comment on that.
So first the comment. I realize that I mostly post relationship junk on this blog, but I think that's when I feel my most vulnerable, off-balance, and reflective...When I'm hurt and in need of a creative outlet to express how I feel. Writing does that for me, and where better than this blog...That's not entirely rhetorical, but anyhow...
So I met this guy. Of course...Yes, I met this guy. He was really great. Thankfully he'll never find my blog, so I can write about him here...Thank God. Anyway, this guy. His name is Chris. He's a really great guy, and we'd been casually seeing eachother for about a month.
Now why should I care that much? Well, I have been doing some thinking...I had JUST gotten over the last guy that I had dated a really, really long time ago...Ugh...But anyway, I told myself that I would focus on really giving this guy all the respect that I think he deserves...Everyone's got baggage and I was starting to really, truly get rid of mine 'cause I honestly wanted this to work out with him. (*Note, my lesson is to deal with my baggage regardless of who is in my life, because I am worth a healthy life) Anyway, we've been seeing eachother...I've kept things very, very casual. Holding hands was a big thing when it happened, and I had to initiate it. But...I kept things casual because we're just getting to know eachother and he's hardly got any time per week to see me, like three hours a week, or less!
So I couldn't afford to invest too much too soon, because he's very busy...I secretly hoped to get closer with him when his schedule freed up, but when would that be? He's ridiculously busy almost all the time...It's a shame. But I knew that, and I told myself that I was going to work on that...I was really going to honestly try and make this thing work...
So things were going really well...We recently had our last date...And then a couple of days later, boom, he TEXT MESSAGES me about how it's not working out. What a total fucking unexpected *surprise*. Oh well. I like(d) the guy, but...It's over, and it wouldn't work out anytime in the future...I have no faith in someone who'd dump me without a discussion first. Yep. Anyway, that's my shoulder sleeve life...Read it and appreciate...
-Kevin
