My blog is fantastic, as it's all about *not me*. Most often, I feel this way, because I am doomed - doomed to be, to be, to be.

Monday, April 10, 2006

Strangers in the Mist

So I'm supposed to tell you something, though I'm not sure what. Oh yeah. I'm not interested. I forgot to tell you that earlier. I wanted to show you what I meant, but we shouldn't be giving away the most inevitable piece of our existence to the humanity and the prosperity of one another don't you agree?

Supposedly we are supposed to make the best of the world. I have nothing left to say. I am agitated these days mostly because of the fault of the others in this prosperity existence. Please keep me company on my journey...This isn't a dream...Please keep it pacified as we see fit. Good evening.

-Kevin

Saturday, April 08, 2006

A Mystery To This Guy Right Here.

I just wanted to say...

I think you are a very odd fellow. I think you are odd because...Are you blowing me off? I asked you if you were, and you said no...But why do I feel so strange around you, like you're a part of a club that I'm now allowed to be in, or something. The more I point this out to you, the more awkward it gets between us...Like I shouldn't say anything to you because we don't know eachother well enough to discuss these issues, or even better, I shouldn't be having these issues because we don't know eachother well enough!

Anyway, I guess I'm just frustrated because you seem so uninterested in my company and you deny it. Believe me, if you wanted to get together with someone, you have the power to do so. One is not *always* that busy. So when I ask, want to hang out sometime? And you respond with, "maybe?" - just like that: "maybe?" with a question mark at the end - You're not even pretending that you're interested.

I'd like to think I'm charming, maybe even in a strange way. I don't think that you really care, or are giving me any sort of chance. So...

I will say that it's your loss. It's a problem if I make any further effort. You'll be more astranged, and I'll drive you away. So my choice is to forget about my interest in you, 'cause I don't need that kind of thing in my life. Goodbye.